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In March of 2017 I was constructively dismissed for standing up for my rights as a social worker and grief counselor and on April 4th 2017, I confessed to an interventionist name Scott Gallagher, that I wanted to end my life. April 4th, 2017 is the date we say the agreement started because that's the first day I went live with a guest and that guest was Scott. I also got a comment while live and have honored the agreement every single day since then, and it was also the first time I ever told Scott or anyone - that I wanted to end my life.
Because I was so isolated, distressed and depressed, unable to function or focus on much of anything, Scott felt I desperately needed daily human connection with healthy people and ideally a different person everyday.
This was all Step 12 work for Scott so he was not rescuing me.
My 1111 agreement started with www.ElevenEleven.TV which was the first multi-camera Facebook live streaming platform in Canada, which we used to get me human connection and attention.
Scott listened to me without judgment that day, and helped me understand that the source of my suicidal ideations was that I was isolating and that daily human connection every morning would interrupt my destructive and suicidal thought patterns.
That's when Scott came up with the idea for a multi-camera facebook live show where I would be the host and he'd be in the background, learning the technology and producing my broadcasts and teach me how to do the same for others.
Scott pays for all the equipment and studio gear out of his own pocket and all he asks of me is that I enter into an agreement with him that will never cost me any money and which goes like this...
The agreement required that I either have a guest in the studio and broadcast live on their Facebook timeline by 11:11am, OR that I broadcast live on my own timeline until someone connected with me by starting a conversation.
In return for honoring this agreement, I received a maximum of 2 hours of Scott’s time the following day (whether it be producing my broadcast in the background, running the cameras, consulting or coaching with me or my guests).
For Scott, it was all about just getting me a guest in the studio to connect with every morning so I don't have time to be in my own head.
And he created this unique facebook live streaming show platform called 1111 where Scott would stream me and my guest on THEIR timeline getting both me and my guests all kinds of attention and visibility into their own network of people, developing a deeper level of trust with those people they would ultimately want to make offers to down the road at the 'right' time.
11:11 was ultimately born out of Scott’s passion for step 12, to be of maximum service to humanity by helping me out of depression. In Scott's world, he was taking a powerful stand for ME when I couldn't (without giving me charity)- he was doing everything he knew to do to help me find a reason to want to live again.
And it worked!
In the first 90 days after 11:11 was created, Scott was blown away by the generosity of all the people (about 60) who came to connect with me on 1111, knowing that they could not promote directly or indirectly or sell anything because that was the essence of step 12.
And in less then 90 days, 1111 (Platform) took a life of its own. In other words, what was first created for me grew into something even bigger and more meaningful where it wasn't about me anymore.
We didn’t create 11:11 to talk about business and projects and plans. This was meant to be a pure moment of human connection, an exchange of experience, a touch of reality, a break from the pressures of society that hold us down.
After my well-being was solid and it was clear that I was no longer depressed nor did I have suicidal ideations, Scott had a long heart to heart talk with me.
He shared with me that one day I will have to let the 1111 fb live show go metaphorically (and share it with others because after all, it was built on the shoulders of step 12) since I am well now, and the whole intention of 1111 was for NOT a profit gain, and now that I am not depressed anymore, he felt I was ready to start focusing on bringing in money for myself.
I was very resistant and reluctant in one day having to let 1111 go, but I knew Scott was looking out for me as he knew that I could never make money from it directly.
And after I kind of embraced the thought that I will need to let go of 1111 eventually one day, the very next day I have a guest come in for 1111.
And Scott strongly feels that this person will make a perfect guest host for 1111 and she will most likely want to do it, he feels everything about them is a yes.
After our 1111 conversation, Scott comes out and asks my guest if they would like to be a guest host of 1111, but he did say that he couldn’t commit, it was ultimately my decision.
And it was so evident that this person would be the perfect fit. It was really hard at first letting 1111 go; I would get emotional at first at just the thought of having to let it go.
But I trusted Scott. I was emotionally well enough at the time - and Scott felt it would soon be time for me to start addressing my financial wellbeing - because 1111 as a fb live show format would not make me money directly because it was not created for that purpose. So with Scott’s guidance and support, I let go of being the only host for 1111.
This video captured in the moment in reel time, it shows how hard it was for me at the time to let it go. And of course, I am not in this emotional place or state of mind anymore. This video is a part of time, where it documents one of those significant events in my journey.
INSERT THE ABOVE MENTIONED VIDEO RIGHT HERE
And as facebook algorythms changed, since I was honoring my agreement by doing facebook lives on my phone when i did not have a guest, Scott no longer had to give up his time to serve me and my guests so in order to honor his part of the agreement, Scott offered to provide free turnaround sessions to my 1111 guests and facebook friends.
WRITE SOME TEXT NOW THAT LEADS TO SAMEENAS BLACK BACKGROUND VIDEO.
And Scott's time was always given for free because to him, everything he was doing for me in the context of my 1111 agreement was all step 12 to him and because I never missed even one single day in causing human connection in the form of a conversation doing my daily facebook live, i kept earning the time and I knew the value of Scott’s time from personal experience. I was a board member for two not-for-profit organizations Scott founded, All Addictions Anonymous and Addiction Free Youth. I shared office space with him when I had my own not for profit, Hope and Happiness Wellness Services, and this office is what became the 1111 studio.
Scott is the founder of the Federal not for profit All Addictions Anonymous (of which I was on the board of directors).
Before I met Scott, he was “volunteering” at least an hour of his time every day as part of his step 12 - ‘entire absence of profit motive work' which was what was giving him immunity from relapsing into alcoholism and crack cocaine addictions.
I personally suffer from an obsessive worry and paranoia condition. I was anorexic when I first met Scott back in 2012. Scott “12 stepped me” back then and helped me recover from what he saw was “my addiction to not eating”.
www.my1111agreement.com is considered 12 step work for Scott, which is why he has never accepted any money from me for keeping his agreement.
so his 1111 agreement with me serves him because it guarantees that Scott has someone to do 12 step work with every morning, without him having to do any marketing or outreach!
Because of my decision to not take prescription drugs, and because the 12 steps have never resonated for me personally like they obviously have for Scott, he continues to support my mental, emotional and financial well-being by simply honoring his own 12 step agreement with himself, of which my 1111 agreement is a part of.
Scott is not only a volunteer for All Addictions Anonymous and Get Booked To Book Others, he has an “entire absence of financial profit motive” for this work because it is Step 12 for him.
Because I was so isolated, distressed and depressed, unable to function or focus on much of anything, Scott felt I desperately needed daily human connection with healthy people and ideally a different person everyday.
This was all Step 12 work for Scott so he was not rescuing me.
My 1111 agreement started with www.ElevenEleven.TV which was the first multi-camera Facebook live streaming platform in Canada, which we used to get me human connection and attention.
Scott listened to me without judgment that day, and helped me understand that the source of my suicidal ideations was that I was isolating and that daily human connection every morning would interrupt my destructive and suicidal thought patterns.
That's when Scott came up with the idea for a multi-camera facebook live show where I would be the host and he'd be in the background, learning the technology and producing my broadcasts and teach me how to do the same for others.
Scott pays for all the equipment and studio gear out of his own pocket and all he asks of me is that I enter into an agreement with him that will never cost me any money and which goes like this...
The agreement required that I either have a guest in the studio and broadcast live on their Facebook timeline by 11:11am, OR that I broadcast live on my own timeline until someone connected with me by starting a conversation.
In return for honoring this agreement, I received a maximum of 2 hours of Scott’s time the following day (whether it be producing my broadcast in the background, running the cameras, consulting or coaching with me or my guests).
For Scott, it was all about just getting me a guest in the studio to connect with every morning so I don't have time to be in my own head.
And he created this unique facebook live streaming show platform called 1111 where Scott would stream me and my guest on THEIR timeline getting both me and my guests all kinds of attention and visibility into their own network of people, developing a deeper level of trust with those people they would ultimately want to make offers to down the road at the 'right' time.
11:11 was ultimately born out of Scott’s passion for step 12, to be of maximum service to humanity by helping me out of depression. In Scott's world, he was taking a powerful stand for ME when I couldn't (without giving me charity)- he was doing everything he knew to do to help me find a reason to want to live again.
And it worked!
In the first 90 days after 11:11 was created, Scott was blown away by the generosity of all the people (about 60) who came to connect with me on 1111, knowing that they could not promote directly or indirectly or sell anything because that was the essence of step 12.
And in less then 90 days, 1111 (Platform) took a life of its own. In other words, what was first created for me grew into something even bigger and more meaningful where it wasn't about me anymore.
We didn’t create 11:11 to talk about business and projects and plans. This was meant to be a pure moment of human connection, an exchange of experience, a touch of reality, a break from the pressures of society that hold us down.
After my well-being was solid and it was clear that I was no longer depressed nor did I have suicidal ideations, Scott had a long heart to heart talk with me.
He shared with me that one day I will have to let the 1111 fb live show go metaphorically (and share it with others because after all, it was built on the shoulders of step 12) since I am well now, and the whole intention of 1111 was for NOT a profit gain, and now that I am not depressed anymore, he felt I was ready to start focusing on bringing in money for myself.
I was very resistant and reluctant in one day having to let 1111 go, but I knew Scott was looking out for me as he knew that I could never make money from it directly.
And after I kind of embraced the thought that I will need to let go of 1111 eventually one day, the very next day I have a guest come in for 1111.
And Scott strongly feels that this person will make a perfect guest host for 1111 and she will most likely want to do it, he feels everything about them is a yes.
After our 1111 conversation, Scott comes out and asks my guest if they would like to be a guest host of 1111, but he did say that he couldn’t commit, it was ultimately my decision.
And it was so evident that this person would be the perfect fit. It was really hard at first letting 1111 go; I would get emotional at first at just the thought of having to let it go.
But I trusted Scott. I was emotionally well enough at the time - and Scott felt it would soon be time for me to start addressing my financial wellbeing - because 1111 as a fb live show format would not make me money directly because it was not created for that purpose. So with Scott’s guidance and support, I let go of being the only host for 1111.
This video captured in the moment in reel time, it shows how hard it was for me at the time to let it go. And of course, I am not in this emotional place or state of mind anymore. This video is a part of time, where it documents one of those significant events in my journey.
INSERT THE ABOVE MENTIONED VIDEO RIGHT HERE
And as facebook algorythms changed, since I was honoring my agreement by doing facebook lives on my phone when i did not have a guest, Scott no longer had to give up his time to serve me and my guests so in order to honor his part of the agreement, Scott offered to provide free turnaround sessions to my 1111 guests and facebook friends.
WRITE SOME TEXT NOW THAT LEADS TO SAMEENAS BLACK BACKGROUND VIDEO.
And Scott's time was always given for free because to him, everything he was doing for me in the context of my 1111 agreement was all step 12 to him and because I never missed even one single day in causing human connection in the form of a conversation doing my daily facebook live, i kept earning the time and I knew the value of Scott’s time from personal experience. I was a board member for two not-for-profit organizations Scott founded, All Addictions Anonymous and Addiction Free Youth. I shared office space with him when I had my own not for profit, Hope and Happiness Wellness Services, and this office is what became the 1111 studio.
Scott is the founder of the Federal not for profit All Addictions Anonymous (of which I was on the board of directors).
Before I met Scott, he was “volunteering” at least an hour of his time every day as part of his step 12 - ‘entire absence of profit motive work' which was what was giving him immunity from relapsing into alcoholism and crack cocaine addictions.
I personally suffer from an obsessive worry and paranoia condition. I was anorexic when I first met Scott back in 2012. Scott “12 stepped me” back then and helped me recover from what he saw was “my addiction to not eating”.
www.my1111agreement.com is considered 12 step work for Scott, which is why he has never accepted any money from me for keeping his agreement.
so his 1111 agreement with me serves him because it guarantees that Scott has someone to do 12 step work with every morning, without him having to do any marketing or outreach!
Because of my decision to not take prescription drugs, and because the 12 steps have never resonated for me personally like they obviously have for Scott, he continues to support my mental, emotional and financial well-being by simply honoring his own 12 step agreement with himself, of which my 1111 agreement is a part of.
Scott is not only a volunteer for All Addictions Anonymous and Get Booked To Book Others, he has an “entire absence of financial profit motive” for this work because it is Step 12 for him.
March 1st 2017, the day I resigned from my corporate job and I never looked back since then. It was also the day I made a decision, in spirit to walk away from my profession as a social worker for good and NOT rely on the 'system' ever again.
This transition has been a roller coaster ride, but thanks to the gift of My1111Agreement, I had a shot at making it in the self-employment world without being forced to go back into working in the corporate world.
April 4th 2017, was the day I first confessed to Scott that I wanted to end my life.
Scott listened to me without judgment that day, and helped me understand that the source of my suicidal ideations was that I was isolating and craved human connection...
...That I needed daily human connection every morning to interrupt my destructive and suicidal thought patterns.
Scott negotiates a deal with me telling me that I can have access to his services every morning for free on the condition that - instead of paying him in $$$ for his services - that I pay him by making and keeping a daily promise to him.
People have often asked me why the name 1111??
Scott initially came up with the name, 1111 because he knew that I was sleeping in a lot due to being very depressed, so he felt 11:11 am was late enough in the morning that I would have no excuse - even with my deep depression to accomplish the promise by that time and not show up late for my guest.
Looking back, it seems, to a lot of people, that Scott naming it 1111 was a brilliant marketing strategy, YET Scott never cared about the number of views or the Attraction and Attention that came from this concept.
For Scott, it was all about just getting me a guest in the studio to connect with every morning so I don't have time to be in my own head.
However, Scott knew that for him to accomplish his mission of supporting my well-being in getting me a guest every single day, we would have to give them something of value to bribe them to want to come into the studio to see a stranger.
And that valuable 'thing' was to provide them with a unique platform to not only connect with me, but also to simultaneously connect with their facebook friends at the same time through the facebook live streaming studio, getting them all kinds of attention and visibility into their own network of people, developing a deeper level of trust with those people they would ultimately want to make offers to down the road at the 'right' time.
11:11 was ultimately born out of Scott’s passion to be of maximum service to humanity by helping me out of depression. In Scott's world, he was taking a powerful stand for ME when I couldn't (without giving me charity)- he was doing everything he knew to do to help me find a reason to want to live again.
And it worked!
I see my self-worth and value now - not only as a human being - but also as a person who can see her value in the market place and not just in a 'job' as someone's 'emplyee' or 'worker', and it's all because of Scott's consistent belief and most importantly, his certainty in my new path that God has chosen for me.
In the first 90 days after 11:11 was created, Scott was blown away by the generosity of all the people (about 60) who came to connect with me on 1111, knowing that they could not promote directly or indirectly or sell anything.
And out of his appreciation to all those 1111 guests who made a difference for me in transforming my emotional state and bringing me permanently out of my depression, what Scott knew he did not have the power to do alone, he created Passion Projects Light as a thank you gift which was exclusive to guests who came on 1111.
Before I became known in my local town and online where people knew me as 'that 1111 girl who has that 'show' from doing 300+ episodes of 1111 in 90 days, I was a grief counselor and a social worker at a local charity.
In 2016, I stood up for my rights against my employer and the rights of other employees at this local charity I was employed at as a social worker.
And as a result, I found myself in the situation where I knew I couldn’t work in the system again.
I loved my work and my clients, and after having lost the ability (in my mind) to do my work ever again, I became very depressed, and even had suicidal ideations.
The things I needed, were hope, a purpose, and human connection. Scott initially created 1111 around me for that reason - To force me to get that human connection and interaction I missed so terribly after leaving my profession entirely.
And in less then 90 days, 1111 (Platform) took a life of its own. In other words, what was first created for me grew into something even bigger and more meaningful where it wasn't about me anymore.
We didn’t create 11:11 to talk about business and projects and plans. This was meant to be a pure moment of human connection, an exchange of experience, a touch of reality, a break from the pressures of society that hold us down.
The agreement required that I either have a guest in the studio and broadcast live on their Facebook timeline by 11:11am, OR that I broadcast live on my own timeline until someone connected with me by starting a conversation.
In return for honoring this agreement, I received a maximum of 2 hours of Scott’s time the following day (whether it be producing my broadcast in the background, running the cameras, consulting or coaching with me or my guests).
I was able to offer this opportunity freely with so many people that came into 1111 for free, including for my other services like Passion Projects Light and the 1111 Turnaround sessions. In fact, the video at the bottom of this page captures a moment in time a few years ago when was present to the gift of being able to sit in and observe Scott's Turnaround sessions.
All this was freely given by me since I was using my 2 hours with Scott at my discretion.
BUT if I ever missed even one single day, the agreement was null, and I would no longer be able to earn any of Scott’s time.
Guests who have been on 1111 could come onto this other platform (Passion Projects light) which gave them an opportunity to talk about whatever they want without any restrictions and conditions.
They could talk about or promote their passion(s) or passion projects, etc., and it was also for free.
After my well-being was solid and it was clear that I was no longer depressed nor did I have suicidal ideations, Scott had a long heart to heart talk with me.
He shared with me that one day I will have to let 1111 go (and share it with others) since I am well now, and the whole intention of 1111 was for NOT a profit gain, and now that I am not depressed anymore, he felt I was ready to start focusing on bringing in money for myself.
And I was very resistant and reluctant in one day having to let 1111 go, but I knew Scott was looking out for me as he knew that I could never make money from it directly.
And after I kind of embraced the thought that I will need to let go of 1111 eventually one day, the very next day I have a guest come in for 1111.
And Scott strongly feels that this person will make a perfect guest host for 1111 and she will most likely want to do it, he feels everything about them is a yes.
After our 1111 conversation, Scott comes out and asks my guest if they would like to be a guest host of 1111, but he did say that he couldn’t commit, it was ultimately my decision.
This transition has been a roller coaster ride, but thanks to the gift of My1111Agreement, I had a shot at making it in the self-employment world without being forced to go back into working in the corporate world.
April 4th 2017, was the day I first confessed to Scott that I wanted to end my life.
Scott listened to me without judgment that day, and helped me understand that the source of my suicidal ideations was that I was isolating and craved human connection...
...That I needed daily human connection every morning to interrupt my destructive and suicidal thought patterns.
Scott negotiates a deal with me telling me that I can have access to his services every morning for free on the condition that - instead of paying him in $$$ for his services - that I pay him by making and keeping a daily promise to him.
People have often asked me why the name 1111??
Scott initially came up with the name, 1111 because he knew that I was sleeping in a lot due to being very depressed, so he felt 11:11 am was late enough in the morning that I would have no excuse - even with my deep depression to accomplish the promise by that time and not show up late for my guest.
Looking back, it seems, to a lot of people, that Scott naming it 1111 was a brilliant marketing strategy, YET Scott never cared about the number of views or the Attraction and Attention that came from this concept.
For Scott, it was all about just getting me a guest in the studio to connect with every morning so I don't have time to be in my own head.
However, Scott knew that for him to accomplish his mission of supporting my well-being in getting me a guest every single day, we would have to give them something of value to bribe them to want to come into the studio to see a stranger.
And that valuable 'thing' was to provide them with a unique platform to not only connect with me, but also to simultaneously connect with their facebook friends at the same time through the facebook live streaming studio, getting them all kinds of attention and visibility into their own network of people, developing a deeper level of trust with those people they would ultimately want to make offers to down the road at the 'right' time.
11:11 was ultimately born out of Scott’s passion to be of maximum service to humanity by helping me out of depression. In Scott's world, he was taking a powerful stand for ME when I couldn't (without giving me charity)- he was doing everything he knew to do to help me find a reason to want to live again.
And it worked!
I see my self-worth and value now - not only as a human being - but also as a person who can see her value in the market place and not just in a 'job' as someone's 'emplyee' or 'worker', and it's all because of Scott's consistent belief and most importantly, his certainty in my new path that God has chosen for me.
In the first 90 days after 11:11 was created, Scott was blown away by the generosity of all the people (about 60) who came to connect with me on 1111, knowing that they could not promote directly or indirectly or sell anything.
And out of his appreciation to all those 1111 guests who made a difference for me in transforming my emotional state and bringing me permanently out of my depression, what Scott knew he did not have the power to do alone, he created Passion Projects Light as a thank you gift which was exclusive to guests who came on 1111.
Before I became known in my local town and online where people knew me as 'that 1111 girl who has that 'show' from doing 300+ episodes of 1111 in 90 days, I was a grief counselor and a social worker at a local charity.
In 2016, I stood up for my rights against my employer and the rights of other employees at this local charity I was employed at as a social worker.
And as a result, I found myself in the situation where I knew I couldn’t work in the system again.
I loved my work and my clients, and after having lost the ability (in my mind) to do my work ever again, I became very depressed, and even had suicidal ideations.
The things I needed, were hope, a purpose, and human connection. Scott initially created 1111 around me for that reason - To force me to get that human connection and interaction I missed so terribly after leaving my profession entirely.
And in less then 90 days, 1111 (Platform) took a life of its own. In other words, what was first created for me grew into something even bigger and more meaningful where it wasn't about me anymore.
We didn’t create 11:11 to talk about business and projects and plans. This was meant to be a pure moment of human connection, an exchange of experience, a touch of reality, a break from the pressures of society that hold us down.
The agreement required that I either have a guest in the studio and broadcast live on their Facebook timeline by 11:11am, OR that I broadcast live on my own timeline until someone connected with me by starting a conversation.
In return for honoring this agreement, I received a maximum of 2 hours of Scott’s time the following day (whether it be producing my broadcast in the background, running the cameras, consulting or coaching with me or my guests).
I was able to offer this opportunity freely with so many people that came into 1111 for free, including for my other services like Passion Projects Light and the 1111 Turnaround sessions. In fact, the video at the bottom of this page captures a moment in time a few years ago when was present to the gift of being able to sit in and observe Scott's Turnaround sessions.
All this was freely given by me since I was using my 2 hours with Scott at my discretion.
BUT if I ever missed even one single day, the agreement was null, and I would no longer be able to earn any of Scott’s time.
Guests who have been on 1111 could come onto this other platform (Passion Projects light) which gave them an opportunity to talk about whatever they want without any restrictions and conditions.
They could talk about or promote their passion(s) or passion projects, etc., and it was also for free.
After my well-being was solid and it was clear that I was no longer depressed nor did I have suicidal ideations, Scott had a long heart to heart talk with me.
He shared with me that one day I will have to let 1111 go (and share it with others) since I am well now, and the whole intention of 1111 was for NOT a profit gain, and now that I am not depressed anymore, he felt I was ready to start focusing on bringing in money for myself.
And I was very resistant and reluctant in one day having to let 1111 go, but I knew Scott was looking out for me as he knew that I could never make money from it directly.
And after I kind of embraced the thought that I will need to let go of 1111 eventually one day, the very next day I have a guest come in for 1111.
And Scott strongly feels that this person will make a perfect guest host for 1111 and she will most likely want to do it, he feels everything about them is a yes.
After our 1111 conversation, Scott comes out and asks my guest if they would like to be a guest host of 1111, but he did say that he couldn’t commit, it was ultimately my decision.
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